Thursday, October 31, 2013

think my life has been changed forever basically


Sherry-Frankie Valli and the 4 Seasons

THIS SONG IS SO GOOD

Just came home from seeing Beyonce. What an absolutely incredible performer, so much showmanship, so much thought put into every intricacy involved in her show. Voice was astounding, dancing was amazing, done together was mindblowing. ALL FEMALE MUSICIANS IN HER BAND made me cry with such sweet happy tears hahah, huge empowerment for women throughout the entire show. The lighting was flipping UNREAL!! I got this really great shirt, it's like a kaleidoscope with her face in the middle of it.










RATHER DIE YOUN-BEYONCE

aka BEST SONG EVER EVER EVER EVEVRERVERVERVER

gotta think over some things...

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

it's been a while ol' folk

hellew!



Pale Blue Eyes-The Velvet Underground

So Lou Reed has gone from the world.

I don't really have anything else to say really

I am gonna go to sleep now catch ya later, you'll get photos of my face tomorrow probs oxoxo

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Saturday, October 19, 2013

YOGA TIME ft. ELLIE











going to see dad do some hardcore yoga

in an existential MESS

more than this there is nothing

hate everyone tonight, hate myself even more than that because of feelings. now bryan ferry and roxy music is happening. this means the end of all life. I'm tired and I'm lonely and I want to cry but I'm just going to put on a movie and fall asleep. I had a two hour roadside nap at waterfall by myself this afternoon, it was bliss. Butt so lonely sigh.

Also my dream last night was really strange, there were a whole lot of different segments because I kept waking up, but there were a group of people who said they were from 1880 walking around some hills in a country side some place, they were quite far away from where I was and when I approached them they got closer and closer to being psychedelic colourful beings with paisley patterns everywhere. Then there was this stampede of horses and there was this one horse charging straight for this girl in a white dress with long blonde hair and it got up on it's rear legs and kicked her in the face and she went straight into the ground and her body just went like, perfectly horizontal and was like it's own coffin about two feet in the ground because of this horse. The stampede finished and I looked into where the horse trampled her into the ground and she was still alive?

Then I think I woke up. It was truly very weird.

Friday, October 18, 2013

T G B H - - W A


THE GRAND BUDAPEST HOTEL


ahfaejfnaiefnaieufhaeiu I am so so excited man akegnaekfjaefna

Also so excited for life Annette and I are planning out our perfect lives I'm so psyched

Saturday, October 12, 2013

...bedbods

so many things I want to do right now, too much heat to handle, only enough energy to change records over, sprawled on bed, trying very hard to move, not happening, come on skeleton and muscles just be friends and work together and get me out of bed GO GO... ok go...alright now

turds

all three girlfriends that I held quite close to me last year, one of which was my closest friend for about six years have turned into selfish turds and dumb neo-feminist power tripping unsupportive egotistical mean butts and I want to say I want them to die but I don't want anyone to die that's a dirty lie hahahahahah I'm so sick of them I do however want them not really in my life anymore...which is kinda of sad on some sort of strange nostalgic level, but I don't really care leave me alone and stop making things up beejes I have really lovely people in my life too and I will cherish them for as long as I live and then even when I die I will cherish them even when I am butt a ghost I will be a cherisher of the lovely people

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

real friends awyeah what's dat?

So today I found out that one of the girls I have regarded as one of my closest friends for a very long time (since year 9, not so much in the last 6 months though) has asked my darling wifey gurl Alex to try and convince me not to serve a mission. She is convinced that my parents have somehow brainwashed me into doing what they want and I know that she thinks my religion is a cult and has for some time and I also know that not once, NOT ONCE have I ever forced my faith upon her or made her feel uneasy about her decision or the different pathways that we have each taken, and I am therefore quite cussing flabbergasted that she would try and use someone who I am a lot closer with than she thinks to try and sway a decision I have made completely for myself and by myself. Alex said that she was afraid of this boy (joshe) about him being 24 and wondering what he wants with me (a 20 year old) despite her (let's call her hoomblah because this is getting confusing) yes, despite Hoomblah having friends who are almost in their 30's. She made Alex think I am really depressed and really unhappy with my life and also made Alex worry that joshe is just trying to get in my pantaloons and have sexy time and I was like nah gurl, nigga please. m8 if he was really like that (which he is not, and I know him well) he woulda tried dat a looooowng time ago he wouldn't have put up with some psycho chick 20 year old who is severely mentally challenged (me obviously) for a year now with just that intention, when a lot of other girls (all other girls) have exactly the same body parts I do, seriously guys, come on. Clothed in a black and white stripey tee, my ripped black jeans, my favourite olive green fur and velvet coat and my burgundy velvet shoes, scarlet lipped and hair washed, WITH A HUGE SMILE ON MY FACE I have not so honestly been able to declare  how happy I have been in the last couple of months for the most part, and I was like Alex babeh, I luff yah, and she was like I luff yah too and you should absolutely do whatever you feel you should and if you are happy with it then this is all that matters and I was like yeah gurl I'm serving my mish take dat beeejez.

SO IN THE END HUMAN BEAN RACE, YOUR FRIENDS AREN'T YOUR REAL FRIENDS NO REALLY BE WARY SOME PEOPLE YOU CANNOT TRUST BUT ALWAYS MAKE SURE TO WALK HOME AT NIGHT ON VERY CLEAR SPRING EVENINGS TO APPRECIATE THE SUBLIME BEAUTY OF A SKY THAT HOLDS A WANING MOON AS GENTLY AS IT DOES. STARS ARE AS EQUALLY GENTLY HELD IN PLACE, PERFECTLY SPACED BY A HAND WHO KNOWS ALL. MOMENTS BECOME SWOLLEN IN THE PRESENCE OF THOSE YOU LOVE AND I KNOW THIS FOR A FACT AND FROM EXPERIENCE  OF MANY FOREVERS HAPPEN WITHIN MOMENTS.

The world is a really beautiful place, filled with much splendour and extravagance, though we are often so swallowed by the nastiness that is so prominent in a society that regard arrogance, ignorance and impoliteness as more regular human traits than their opposites, please remember that there is so much good.

DON'T LET CRAP FRIENDS GET YOU DOWN. JUST BECAUSE THEY MAY BE DEPRESSED, IT DOES NOT MEAN EVERYONE THEY KNOW ALSO HAS A WASH OF DEPRESSION OVER THEM, GEEZ. And try to be a better friend amy you jerk, maybe Hoomblah needs a friend also, but m8 how do I do that when she is trying to tear me away from what I know best, amy you will find a way, yes you will, aight I'm sure I will thanks.

Here yah go, happy snaps!!!

NOTHING WILL GET ME DOWN NOTHING I AM EXACTLY HAPPY EXACTLY  AT THAT SPOT.

I WILL OWN IT BABEH.

What a day, so much all the much, much too much.

LOVE IS THE SOURCE FROM WHICH WE ALL EXIST. Srsly.




Saturday, October 5, 2013

OH MY LIPS THAT ARE ON THE FLAME


Drug Chart-The Flaming Lips

I HAVE HAD SUCH A WONDERFUL AFTERNOON--THIS IS NOT A THING BECAUSE IT IS SUNDAY MORNING.

I have had a really nice time in life. Thursday night Joshe and I went to see The Rite of Spring and Mahler's First Symphony (it was so incredible) and it was so incredible. Yeup. He slept over, we had two hours sleep forming this unbelievably elaborate plan to make things easier as we were playing a gig with Mckenzie on friday night. I was going to drive my car to his house in Hornsby and get the 5 o' clock train into work for a 6 o' clock start, do my 8 hour shift, then get a train back to Hornsby, have a nap, then we would drive straight to Marrickville.

We woke up at 3:30 and began loading up my car with the drum kit, then at 4:15 we left to drive to his place. I then got a lift with his parents to the station who were going to the gym at five to 5 in the morning (thanks guys hahah). I got on a train, and promptly went to sleep. About ten minutes later I got a call from my mother who was very angry that I had just taken the car like that without asking because sophie needed the car today to take ellie places or something, anyway she was just very very mad it was cray, so in the end, after all our efforts, MY DAD WENT AND PICKED UP THE CAR?!

So what happened in the end was--Josh met me at work, we got a bus to castle hill, picked up the car from there, drove back to my house, I reloaded the car (my bass drum had been removed) while Joshe had a shower, we got some petrol (such a good time and the best dude at the counter who thought joshy had gone in to get condoms but was too shy so walked out bahahahha), phone ordered a pizza, drove to hornsby, loaded up the guitar and pedal poard, drove into marrickville, played this gig, went to maccas with Annette (thank you for coming so much I love you), then returned to the venue and had a nap in the car. Almost died driving home. Was legitimately concerned about killing us, managed not to, and even managed not to die driving home from Josh's house at two in the morning--ALMOST A 24 HOUR DAY WOT DA.

Anyway, yes, good happy times, got phase 1 of Annette's birthday present yesterday, gonna be siq.

This is what I look like on sunday mornings when I have the worst stomach cramps ever experienced





In two weeks, I am goin to get my hair cut again in order to prevent mullet growth, although actually I might not, I am worried about the people taking off some hair where I didn't want it cut at all, so maybe I will wait for a couple of months...I should have a sort of bob for december though, which is GREAT! 

Google how to grow your hair faster..

Also, that Lips track can't deal it is perfect.

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Today was perfect, this evening is filled with hot angry tears welling

But you know, it's ok!

I CAN HANDLE IT.

BECAUSE LYF. BECAUSE FEELINGS ARE IMPORTANT AND THEY ARE HUMAN.

AND BECAUSE I HAVE A COUPLE OF REALLY GOOD FRIENDS AND THEY ARE ACTUALLY MY HEART AND SOUL AND I LOVE THEM FOR THE EVERS AND EVERS.

Today I went hiking up Mt. Keira, and though I am not quite as quick to jump up a cliff face or scale a mountain as Nick or Liam, I am still so glad that I have a lot of bones in my body that are filled with curiosity enough to do dump things like take a step that is far too large or grab hold of a spiky tree and continue to hold onto it otherwise I would have actually slid down the mountain.

I have a lot of scratches all over my legs, but it is the most exciting thing to remember.

Today was Nick's birthday. I wrote him a letter. He cried. I love him.

It was also Alex El Alam's birthday, we went to dinner and I had a very large plate of pesto ravioli. I love her.

Next week is Annette's birthday and we are going to become extreme versions of ourselves and she has an immense plan for Wednesday, when she turns 21. SO. EXCITED. I love her with all of my heart and heart strings and everythings.

November 29 is the release of a Flaming Lips ep called Peace Sword and please please please have the track I am dreaming of being in there to be in there.

THE JEYBOARD JUST STABBED ME IN THE BACK OW.

I'm going to put on beavis and butt-head and go to sleep because I have work in the morning (yay) and also here are some photos.







hahahahah radiolab yes