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Always Be My Baby-Mariah Carey

who am I kidding, this is actually THE GREATEST

YO YO YO YOOOO BITCHES YO YOOO

I dunnoleeleeleel

WWEEEEE

JUST FOUND OUT MY GORGEOUS FRIEND BLAKE IS ALIVE AND WELL AND WORKING IN NORTHERN QUEENSLAND AND IS GOING TO NEW ZEALAND AT THE END OF THE YEAR AND I AM SO HAPPY FOR HIM AND I BET HE HAS HAD SUCH AN INCREDIBLE TIME THESE LAST SIX MONTHS GOOD GRIEF SIX MONTHS HE HAS LITERALLY BEEN A  NOMAD HE IS TRULY SUCH A BRILLIANT, BRILLIANT SUNNUVABEECH.

I also got his email address bahahaha sucked in, he gon' get spammed like butts

SURE I'M C.F KANE BUT YOU GOTTA LOVE ME

soft hair and a velvet tongue I wanna give you what you give to me WHITE STRIPES NIGHT YEEEAH

freaking my dad out because this was my choice of outfit for the afternoon hahaahah

gonna go see these guys on tharsdee woo

On a Side Street-Bardo Pond

almost august holy poop

lying in bed listening to yoshimi

reading a dissection of the flaming lips' studio recordings

http://consequenceofsound.net/2013/04/dissected-the-flaming-lips/

eating gingernut biscuits

my sundays are nothing short of perfect

In the Morning of the Magicians

I said bye bye babyyy

Somehow made a new friend...WHAT. Not happened in like a year and a half hahah, it's weird. And really nice.

I am eating pop tarts and it's 11:53pm. Yes I have work at 6am tomorrow. Weah. Watching Beavis and Butt-Head whaddup.

Dis song is da best.


I Met Him On A Sunday-The Shirelles

LIFE

IS


SO



GOOD



GUYS




GETAMONGSTITJA





SERIOUSLY




THERE IS SO MUCH IN DA WORLD WAITING FOR US TO HELLA WAKE UP MAN
(WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING SO ASLEEP?!?!)

ICH BIN DEUTSCHE.

Had my first class of German today. Ist wunderbar!!!!

Gonna get Coco (Chanel, that is) on yow ass on saturday and wear trousers and a blouse (YEH) going to go and get them tomorrow.

Was just about to go to bed and then I found three brand new episodes of adventure time (YEEEHHS).

Saw Alex El Alawifey today and we got love pandas she is truly one of my dearest companions and I love her to the ends of the earth panda alexandra.

Got Pleasure Heads Must Burn and Last Tango In Paris today from the darling ol' man. (Never will stop loving him)

Day 3/5 of 6-2pm shift tomorrow, and it's gonna be big as I will remain in the city to watch a film that starts at 7:15 wooh

YOLO
(kill me)

Annette come back I miss you

please I'm having a cry in bed to Neil Young I miss you a lot wah

preparing myself for the roast beast

I hope you are having a beautiful time in Tasmania though <3 your hair looks great I love you




Motion Pictures-Neil Young

Motion pictures
on my TV screen,
A home away from home,
livin' in between
But I hear some people
have got their dream.
I've got mine.

I hear the mountains
are doin' fine,
Mornin' glory
is on the vine,
And the dew is fallin',
the ducks are callin'.
Yes, I've got mine.

Well, all those people,
they think
they got it made
But I wouldn't buy,
sell, borrow or trade
Anything I have
to be like one of them.
I'd rather
start all over again.

Well, all those headlines,
they just bore me now
I'm deep inside myself,
but I'll get out somehow,
And I'll stand before you,
and I'll bring
a smile to your eyes.
Motion pictures

wooh

finally just bought myself a flaming lips shirt, it's a skull with legs and arms and he's kind of on fire and is holding a banner that says the flaming lips I am excited beyond belief actually gee whiz, I decided to watch christmas on mars instead of the fearless freaks instead of under great white northern lights. It is how I feel essentially.

Alreich Amy. You da best.

I HATE IDIOTS UGH

hatehatehate, hatehatehate, double hate, LOOOAOAAATTHE ENTIRELY

ws

going to watch Under Great White Northern Lights and then go to bed

jul21lyf

Mother Nature's Son-The Beatles


Discovering who your real friends are is a thing, it really happens, and it's really painful, but also incredibly refreshing.

The Existence Validating Shower Experience

This is the piece I submitted to Rookie mag, just for kicks or whatever. 

The Existence Validating Shower Experience

By Me

I haven’t always been a risk taker. A risk taker in the sense of immediate life choices, talking mostly with regard to experience in the fields of love or living situations or drugs or ultra-violence or whatever else curious teenage beings associate themselves with. I’ll absolutely ride the biggest roller coaster in the park and promptly scream and flail my arms, not because I am afraid, simply because it feels as though my arms will remove themselves from their shoulder sockets. And I enjoy that. ‘Risking’ no longer having my two upper limbs. Unnecessarily climbing buildings. Doing a ridiculous dance move in the middle of a city and chipping the corner of a front tooth. Pinching someone on the bootie. Sleeping over somebody’s house on a whim (though ‘sleeping’ is incorrect because the exhilaration is too powerful to still, due to the Talking Heads dance party just had). These are all things I consider to be risks, no matter how petty or insignificant they may seem, they are still things you decide on, a process during which your heart and /or other vital organs may skip a beat and / or jump around slightly.

It all came whirling down on me one evening when I was taking a shower in my home, after having returned from a week-long holiday.

I had built myself a solid routine in my home shower. And I mean solid. Extending to minute details including the direction I pointed the shower head, assuring my naked body I wouldn’t be pelted with cold water before it had the chance to heat up. I have my own exfoliating gloves and I bring clothes into the bathroom. Having a shower is an event. Every act is planned. My method of ‘wash face--shampoo hair--scrub body--rinse face/hair/body--condition hair--brush out hair--rinse’ has been scrupulously thought out. Recently, I was introduced to brushing my teeth in the shower and discovered the immense bliss it brought me (being able to dribble a minty foamy substance and not have it stain my clothes-glory) and had to learn to adapt my mechanical shower situation so it now runs: wash face--shampoo hair--scrub body--rinse face/hair/body--condition hair--brush teeth--dribble tooth paste--brush out hair—rinse.

The second morning of my holiday, I went to take a shower to remove the 8 hour car trip stench and suddenly, the universe shifted. Would the thwarting of my shower ritual truly be the end? All my soaps weren’t on the ride side where they SHOULD have been. The hair products were different. They were miniscule. Had I surpassed my growing into a behemoth human thing? The shower head didn’t even move, was I doomed to endure the tiny pellets of liquid ice?!

And then I realised, OH, THE FRAGILITY OF LIFE.

If I am so put out by such a seemingly trivial event I have implemented into my unbelievably regular and otherwise somewhat routineless life, what does this say about the nature of existence? How delicate we are! It’s actually quite incredible when you think about it. Every decision we make is like a snail crossing a fishing line bridge between two buildings. Either way we choose, the snail falls off to one side, hopefully if it’s a good risk for YOU, there’ll be a trampoline beneath for little snail to bounce safely to the ground (the snail would definitely not even survive this, I think, please refrain from testing).

When faced with an unknown shower in a strange bathroom, we are faced with two questions:

a) Do I continue my routine at home and try and reduce the amount of FREAK OUT when it’s all thrown out of whack? ie. Are small, ‘unimportant’, very structured every day events the types of things that prevent our brain hands from clutching utter insanity? Is it these things that provide a balance to allow us to do risky / perhaps utterly stupid things and feel quite liberated by it?

b) Do I stop my routine completely and attempt it all ad lib? Will this put me in more of a “LIVIN’ LIFE ON DA EDGE” frame of mind because I have destroyed the ritual like quality I had given to basically the most medial of everyday activities? Will I be able to make difficult decisions that will have implications on me for some time because I have exercised a willingness to change and to constantly be in a state of flux?

Risks are facts and pieces of evidence of our existence. They are real and they are important. Mysterious showers are important. Though baths are a great idea…

tiredandillBUTLOVINLIFE

I got an early mark from work today and went shopping and nearly bought a $173 dress, it's SO gorgeous. So maybe when I get back from melbourne or get my tax money back or whatever or actually I still need like 300 bucks from that Easter job I did. That's right, EASTER. Gee wizz guys, gimme my money already.

I've nearly listened to Clouds Taste Metallic record three times in full.

I am going to start eating healthier and doing a little bit of exercise.

Next week, I start German lessons. (ENROLLED)

Next week, I get to see Todd Rundgren--twice!!

In two weeks, I leave for melbourne to stay with my brother in the city for a week.

Later in August I am going to see Tavi Gevinson.

What I did buy however, was a super sparkly shirt from the opportunity shop for four dollars harhar.

This is what I look like after a 7 hour breakfast shift.

And also, this song is the best


Guy Who Got A Headache and Accidentally Saves the World-The Flaming Lips


I want to marry the group as a collective would that work?

I guess I'll just keep hunting for a t-shirt...haah

loving too much can turn you into a jerk to the person you love too much

or something

we did see some pretty swell films tonight though, thank goodness for the gallery film nights returning to us

can I?...

*travel the amount that I dream of travelling

*show kindness to every human I meet

*express some important things within me through a medium that will reach people

*find someone who will come on adventures with me

*eat these three tim tams that are left

...YES

WEOWEOW

I JUST WROTE AND RECORDED ALL PARTS FOR A SONG ALL BY MYSELF I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF I AM AWARE OF THE POOR QUALITY OF SAID TRACK BUT AM PROUD OF MYSELF NONETHELESS

mhhhm

RAGE

so I spoke to a girlfriend of mine for the first time in a month and told her that I was no longer moving to Melbourne and she was mostly upset about no longer having a drummer for her band and as soon as I got off the phone I received a message for another girl who I've not seen in a month asking me why I was no longer going to melbourne and I told her the reasons why and then I got this reply

(also news travels maddeningly fast)

"idk I just worry about you babe, melb would have let you do lots of music stuff you can't do here and really learn how all that works, and better prepared you for living overseas where it's harder to make mistakes and if you have real anxieties about being around lots of people that's going to make it extra hard now. As long as you're staying for the right reasons and not because you're freaked out xx also soz I'm not saying it to make you feel bad, you just seemed so determined to do it for ages so I just get worried is all, idk"

I'm sorry but we haven't even really had a real proper conversation in over a month so you have no idea what has been going on in my life lately and I cried when I first booked my ticket because I was so uneasy about the decision what I do is my choice you're not my mother don't tell me what is good or not good for me you have had about as much life experience as I have why do you think you can tell me what to do GEEZ I know she's just worried and cares about me lots and she means the best for me and is coming from her heart or whatever, but far out it makes me giant rage maybe I will buy myself an island and live there by myself with no one at all just marlon brando films and adventure time and my thermals and jay z's new record SUCK IT LYF. Jack White should come to my island too I will never get over him ever. I have so much to do in my life and I will do it all myself and everything will be great. MNMNMNM (that's me sticking my tongue out at life)

In other news, this track is the best...

100$ Bill-Jay-Z

tonsillitis

I have tonsillitis

It sucks big balls

My mother hand fed me mac and cheese nom nom nom

So I bought the Soft Bulletin and realised there is one track I have never heard and the version I had for some reason has a different track listing woah freakin out it is such a beautiful song too



The Spiderbite Song-The Flaming Lips

ba;lss

have not had a sick like this in such a long, long time. Ears and head are aching the balls out of me, and I haven't eaten a proper meal since dinner last night because my throat is so sore. I am going to buy myself a flaming lips shirt and tomorrow some jodhpers to make myself feel better swagyolo

so pooped maaaaan and getting ill wah

tesdrtfgvbhjnkm

meandxanthius

hi

does anyone read this besides me, in which case I talk to myself even more often than I originally thought?

cool

444h4irujgk

4hourssleepaheadforaneighthourshiftohboyohboyiamreadyyespleasethankyouthankyou

STAND BEHIND THE CURTAIN WHILE THEY CRUSHED ME OUT

Ashtray Heart-Captain Beefheart

hiskool

herherher

blepe

I FEEL REALLY GOOD ABOUT LETTING ALL OF THIS AND ALL OF THESE INHIBITIONS GO THESE CHAINS OF LOVE AIN'T GONNa GET A HOLD O' ME NU UUUH

and also

I am enrolling to learn german starting in two weeks wooh

After much thought and decision making, I have decided not to move to melbourne, there's too much I want to do and will not have the means to do so if I move down there. Like learn german, and take some piano lessons...and continue to get paid buttloads for teaching flute

cool water cool wind

Will There Be Enough Water-The Dead Weather

shouldn't have started watching dead weather vids rookie mistake maaaan

.

i tink it is time to make myself a beethoven shirt

I AM READY...

...to clean my bedroom

givemeyourshoulderplz

roaring of planes coming not close enough. their space carving through the air that i am swimming in. the air that swallows me as i am lost in noise and in blur. lost in indecision. lost in abstraction. lost in solitude. content with my legs crossed, staring at a nail polish stain on the carpet made some months ago. i need to learn to not be so content and at ease with doing so little with my time. i've lost myself in the lists i've made of things to do and to be. lost and pathless.











(ifeelsosadcansomeonepleasecomeandgivemeacuddleandlendmeashoulder?)






Feeling Yourself Disintegrate-The Flaming Lips





always here making me feel okay i need you on vinyl for wax cries please crrryryrryryryy

wewfilms

just went to the dvd store AND HERE ISS MY BUNDLE:
-apocalypse now
-peggy sue got married
-mary and max
-the wild one
-the silver linings playbook

where is my chocolate

WINNINGS OF MY COFFS HARBOUR ADVENTURE

-first season of adventure time (this thing is incredible)

-the virgin suicides (so incredible sofia, you goddess)

-beavis and butt-head do america (hyyyeeesss)

(seriously)

(omcuss)

(look at this)

(and the back dear lawd help me)

AND SOME HIGH WAISTED BLUE JEANS SO I CAN BECOME JAMES DEAN I ALSO GOT MYSELF TWO WHITE TEE SHIRTS HOH YES LOOK OUT ERREHBODY

daday

adventure time, beavis and butt-head, the virgin suicides, blue jeans and a white tee are all winnings of da day woooh

julytroissoleil

DAT BLUE SKY

Day three familybamily

Didn't wake up till 12

Went to the beach 

Ate some cupcakes

Looked for seashells and built sandcastles with my small children relatives

Sat on a couch with Nicky Pee for several hours contemplating what piece of music we should do our anxiously awaited interpretative dance tomorrow night, we stumbled across the perfect material--Allen Ginsberg's musical interpretation of Songs of Innocence and Experience by William Blake. SUPER PSYCHED.

Now I'm going to a dinner with all of my generation at da bowlo

DA BOWWWLOOOO

I love that this is a thing...